there i was again, in mission dolores park. dressed in an iridescent cowl with a flower crown, holding a banner, i was shy and nervous. by the time i arrived last Aries Full Luna, i already had experience collecting wishes from strangers on the street, with great help from my ‘fluffer’ friend visiting for the weekend. this time, i was stuck in my familiar rut of reviewing mental rules for when i am allowed to interact:
no they have kids it would be imposing
they looked away they must not be interested
ah they probably would have done it… damn it
my first wish came after a man walked over with his daughter as she was curious what my sign said. he read it to her and i asked if she wanted to make a wish. she anxiously grab onto her father and they kindly left, but then a woman took their place and said she would like to share. more came when a local friend came by, who helped calmed my nerves. there were some cascades of interest as passersby provoked the curiosity and participation of others.
like last week, i opened by asking if someone wanted to make a wish on the moon. this time i suggest a theme for releasing something that is holding you back from being more yourself. i was afraid this additional requirement would turn people off, but most were receptive, if not resonating with the idea, though i assured the few exceptions that any wish would do.
the most tender moment involved a man didn’t want to write his wish, so i offered to think through it with me. he offered his hands and we stood together for several seconds looking into each others eyes. his look was soulful and earnest, and i wanted to match it. it felt like real magic.
the most affirming moment was when a man said i reminded him of san francisco of the seventies, one of the old world undergrounds that inspires my love for this city.
i have been debating whether to share what people have written here. i thought of writing out every one of them, then questioned if it would violate the sanctity of their tying their wish to the banner, or be a breach of confidentiality, anonymous or not.
one wisher said i should burn them after; another disagreed and said they should be preserved.
thinking on this, i stopped writing this reflection for a moment to read some.
sadly, many are illegible as i ran out of sturdy fabric and had to use more readily available cheap fabric. nonetheless, most of the ones i read were an emotional hit. some you would expect — let go of fear, insecurity, worry. others were specific and personal, some a little heartbreaking —
but i guess that’s the point — i am offering a moment of self reflection. you put into it what you are ready to gain, when a guy in a weird costume with a banner comes up to you and asks if you want to make a wish. that’s a step out of the ordinary, an enchantment of the commons.
i’m not asking for money. i don’t do more than make small talk, if someone is waiting while someone else writes. i try to preverse my blankness and mystery.
my most extra, Full Luna moment, when the one’s sense of purpose is most aligned with their emotional condition, was entering the sisters of perpetual indulgence’s hunky jesus contest. i identified as age of aquarius jesus. i was asked if i was on weed or shrooms, i said just love.
later, some to-be-wishers called me over and said they has cheered for me.
later still, one of the jesuses and two women came over to interview me on camera, which i think i did alright. don’t know what it was for. they also wrote some wishes.
by the time i got home i was out of fabric for making wishes, thirty five in all.
i feel like the astrology i saw in my last reflection played out for my Full Luna weekend; i stuck to my intention of going to new places to test new ideas.
the balancing of soul desires and spirit dreams (Luna opposite Sol) against a drive to plunge into the depths and face hard truths (squaring Pluto) was alive on the day of the Full Luna, and i believe my time in the park was really leaning into the Piscean idealism and intuition (Jupiter and Neptune conjoined, Venus applying, Mars co-present), putting the Plutonic intensity aside — or at least out of direct view.
during the next New Luna during the month of Taurus, a partial Solar Eclipse, Luna and Soul will be approaching Uranus, suggesting surprises and a need for changeability the weekend moving from April to May of the Gregorian calendar. The power to act is available with a superior sextile from Mars, over two weeks in Pisces, co-present with the domiciled and exalted Benefic planets and thematically similar Neptune. With the forceful planet’s help, the dreams and fogs of the past several weeks (or years) may inspire an unexpected new resolution for the month.